Writing With A Purpose

I love writing and blogging! I have had a blog for years, but never really considered doing much other than an occasional article. Today Southern Writing Magazine asked me to do an author’s guest post. I submitted my post today and will see where it goes from here! They have a busy, energetic magazine and blog. Check it out!  http://www.southernwritersmagazine.com/

 

To Be Reminded….

I took my daughter to gymnastics’s today just like every other Saturday, and while I was waiting for her, I realized that I was feeling completely overwhelmed and stressed out! I know that I had alot to do today, things to get done to prepare for her sleepover tonight to celebrate her birthday; errands to run, but nothing that would have me with this heavy heart and feeling of doom. To describe what it physically felt like, would be to describe anxiety, but it was more than that, it was Spiritual. I recently started a job working at home, while training this week, I realized that I was burning up a whole lot of busy work, which allowed me little time for anything else. I hadn’t even read my Bible in the last few days. How in a matter of four or five days could I experience such a peace, and then go to what I would describe as stress, and darkness? I knew what it was, it was satan. I realized that he had me busy, and I took my eye’s off the Lord. The busyness of everything, had gotten to the point where I hadn’t even prayed much, come to think of it. It had been a few days since Jesus and I had our time. It’s amazing, it does not take very long, a matter of hours or even days to get yourself back in a dark place. When Peter took his eyes off Jesus, while he was walking on water, he immediately sank!

On the way home from gymnastics, I prayed. I prayed and asked for forgiveness, and expressed my true desire to love, honor and walk with Him. After I prayed, I felt that peace again, the calmness, that worry, the anxiety, all immediately disappeared! I finished the rest of my day with my daughter, in a calm and joyous way, we had a good time together.

Later on that afternoon, as I was sitting down to peruse through my books that I just received to review and blog, I noticed a passage that the book was referring too. I wrote it down and looked it up, Hebrews 12:22-13:2. What I usually do when I read Scripture, is start at the beginning of that chapter that I am reviewing so I can get a real feel of what I am reading. I started at Hebrews 12:1 and read all the way down to verse twenty two.

Hebrews 12:1-6
New International Version (NIV)

12 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run<sup class="crossreference" value="(A)”> with perseverance<sup class="crossreference" value="(B)”> the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus,<sup class="crossreference" value="(C)”> the pioneer<sup class="crossreference" value="(D)”> and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross,<sup class="crossreference" value="(E)”> scorning its shame,<sup class="crossreference" value="(F)”> and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.<sup class="crossreference" value="(G)”> 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary<sup class="crossreference" value="(H)”> and lose heart.

God Disciplines His Children

4 In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.<sup class="crossreference" value="(I)”> 5 And have you completely forgotten this word of encouragement that addresses you as a father addresses his son? It says,

“My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline,
and do not lose heart<sup class="crossreference" value="(J)”> when he rebukes you,
6 because the Lord disciplines the one he loves,<sup class="crossreference" value="(K)”>
and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son.”
 
Although it was discipline, it was refreshing! I put Him back in control, in the driver’s seat of my life knowing I am not to make any decisions without Him! I know that when I am in control, I make a mess, and its often such a big mess, that I do not have the desire or ability to clean it up!  I am not one who enjoys cleaning up, so I think I will just be obedient and let Him lead! What do you think?
 
Peace….
 
 

Where Would I Be?

It is such a humbling experience to sit and watch God’s majestic beauty in power
as the ocean constantly in motion. It’s the little things that we often are too
busy to notice. Have you done everything you wanted to do today? I am learning
its not about things, or possessions that we should work for, its about people!
Loving people with such an innocence of a small child. No alterior motives, no
needs to be met, just simply enjoying another person. We are all created for
interaction and relationships with other people. I have heard that we as humans
work our whole life for the gold mine at the end of the rainbow, but during that
time it is easy to become strained in the one’s you love. That is Satan’s
tactic. He is slow, and patient to keep hammering and chiseling away at your
heart and soul

I sit and thank about where I was, and where I was before
God saved me! Where would I be without your grace? Life is precious and fragile,
I learned that when I lost my brother. I don’t want to spend my whole life
chasing a dream, if I don’t have someone to share it with. I have learned the
difference between happiness and Joy! Grace and Mercy are the key component in
this world. You came to my rescue, I have grace that restores, grace that
redeems, grace that releases me to worship you wholeheartedly. Miracles! Joy is
what I feel when I am talking with you! After finding out what Joy is, I don’t
care if I ever experience another blessing, you are sufficient! You are my King!
Jesus, there is so much healing and peace in just saying your name! Thank you
for you love, friendship, grace, and mercy!

Peace,
Traci

Imagine…..

I am in awe of your Glory! What would I do if I came face to face with you now? What would I do? Bow and give you your Glory, forever worship you. Thank you Jesus. The beauty and love you display everyday with your gentleness, grace and so much mercy! Who could deny that you are God? The smallest blessings through out the day, to the greatest blessing of breath each day.Surrounded by your Glory, can I dance for you Jesus? Should I stand in your presence or fall to my knee’s? What will my heart feel? The radiance of love that overflows from within you. I feel joy, life, love, and am excited of the journey that we are taking forever. Thank you for your love, and thank you for life. Both are precious! The light off your reflection sends us a warmth that penetrates the very soul, your very temple! God I give it all to you, I surrender my will to you, I don’t want to do it my way, but yours. Give me strength to fight each day, the inner battles of spiritual unbelief that we have to honestly reflect on. Can I stand in your presence? Can I sing to you gentle hymns that brought me so much comfort as a small child. I can only imagine….

Without Understanding….

I normally have to watch what I watch on television, or what I hear, for the tragedy’s of this senseless world stay in my mind and thoughts for a long time, and really bother me!  I use to ask God, Why? Why do these horrible things happen? I don’t anymore, I have learned that even though God knows why, He still grieves with us!

Man and God were separated by sin long, long ago. He gave us our own free will to make the choices that we do all by ourselves, good or bad. I guess choosing sin must be easier for the majority of the people, for that is what is usually chosen.

Even after all our evilness as people, God loves us! He sent his only son to die for us, so we would again have the opportunity to walk with Him, side by side. I choose to be Spiritually connected and loved by Him.

My heart is breaking for the loved one’s of those who died or were injured in the Aurora, Colorado recent shootings. I read a blog written by a woman who survived it with her two girls, her first line was, “Maybe I survived this shooting so you would have the opportunity to read this, that God is Good! and that God loves you!”

I have learned through my own tragedies of life, that God is Good, and that something good will come out of this.

 He says in his Word, Romans 8:28:
28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good <sup class="crossreference" value="(A)”> of those who love him, who have been called <sup class="crossreference" value="(B)”> according to his purpose. “

Peace and Blessings!

Life Lines……

“Let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.
                                                                                          Galatians 6:9

The day after the wreck I went out to the junkyard to obtain my baby brother’s belongings out of his car. Just the night before I had walked the walk of death, holding my brother while he passed away from his injuries. After all respiration’s stopped, I was given his bag of clothes and left him there for the last time. What a horrible day that was, February 20, 2002. This was not suppose to happen, we had birthday plans for Daniel, he was turning 25 years old in two days, in fact, the day we buried him.

My brother lived life to the fullest, having recently been saved, he was attending bible study regularly. I was not surprised to find his Bible with him in his vehicle, the night of the wreck. God was with Him. I know that God was with him, for He said in His Word, I will never leave you nor Forsake you, and He never left Daniel, He never did! A few months later at the court hearing for the man who hit my brother, I met a witness who was there with my brother. He came up to me, and said I want you to know I was there and talked to your brother. I asked him, What did he say? The man stated, “I asked him if he was in any pain, my brother replied no. He then asked him if he was OK, and my brother said yes. Imagine the relief I felt when I heard that. I was so thankful for that man. Another nurse had stopped to help him, and she was leaning over into the car and was hit by another vehicle, paralyzing her. I called her emotionally a few days later to thank her, and she told me that “If I had to do it all over again, I would… I wouldn’t change a thing!” What?” Are you serious? I couldn’t believe what she had said. What an angel! I think today that somehow she was just that, an angel.

Fast forward a few days, I was flipping through Daniel’s bible, and he had underlined Galatians 6:9. I didn’t think much of it, until the day of the funeral, getting ready the television was on and talking to the wall. It was on a religious channel, at my moms. What I remember most was, why is the TV on a religious channel it never was at my moms house. Out of the blue I hear a women on the TV screen read out loud Galatians 6:9, “Let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.”  I was starting to get it now.

Fast forward ten years until now, I truly believe that knowing what I know now, God showed so much mercy and grace in taking Daniel, for had he survived, he would not have been the same person that he was medically speaking.

I can not tell you the number of people that I have come across over the years, since that awful day. I think I was a grief magnet, for others who were is so much pain. I was so blessed, and continue to be to this day to help others along in their journey of finding a “new ” normal.  Life is not the same, but it is beautiful, and there is love! I miss Daniel and wonder what if, but that is not to be. What if, is now What if I had never been able to love on that person when they needed it the most? What if God had not of comforted me? I leave you with this, 

2 Corinthians 1:3  Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, <sup class="crossreference" value="(A)”> the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us <sup class="crossreference" value="(B)”> in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.

Peace and Love…

                                                                                         
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The Howl of the Wind

Matthew 14:27-31, I love these verses, it is a perfect description on how I feel sometimes when the storms of life are battering me. In Matthew, Peter expresses to Jesus that he is afraid of the strength of the wind, which caused Peter to take his eyes off Jesus, and he began to sink. “Lord,  save me”, Peter cried. The Lord replied,”You of little faith, why did you doubt?” As Jesus climbed into the boat the wind ceased.

In Beth Moore’s study of Breaking Free, she writes, “Christ does not always immediately calm the storm, but He is always willing to calm His child on the basis of His presence.”

Oh how many times, because of distractions, have I taken my eyes off Jesus? I let the distractions and circumstances of the world, cause me to take my eyes off Jesus, resulting in me tumbling down into the deep water’s of life. It was because of another force, (the wind) that caused me to stumble and  get off track of the path of the righteous life. After the fact, when I hit the water, I realize what was the cause of the fall, and it is up to me to re-focus my attention back on the Lord and get up again.

I remember the wind as a child frightened me, and in the night if I was staying with my grandmother, I would curl up as far underneath her as I could possibly get, feeling safe with her. I remember talking with her about the wind one night in the dark, I couldn’t see her, but the calmness of her voice when she told me that, “the wind is what God uses to talk to us”. She said if you lay real still and quiet, you will be able to hear his voice in the wind,  telling  us that it’s okay, not to be afraid, for he is near us.  I laid there for a few minutes, listening for his voice. I told her that I didn’t hear any voices, and she said just “be still child, you will hear it.”

I don’t recall hearing God’s voice through the wind that night,  but I did feel a peace, enough to fall back asleep. To this day, everytime I hear the wind, I feel the stillness and the tranquility of His peace, that He gives to us, that makes me no longer afraid of the wind. It not only makes me not afraid, not just of the wind, but it gives me the boldness to face each day, with an ear for hearing from Him, and a heart open to recieve His love and nurturing.

I thank God for the people, He has put into my life, and the lessons I have learned from Him, and through other people. It is amazing, that He is always there, and I can always feel His love, no matter what the circumstances are.