It’s Such a Good Place….

I am in such a good place right now, and I know it is because of my walk with Jesus! Before, I was always frustrated, sad for no apparent reason, and since I have committed my life to the Lord, it is amazing! I am happy, and with so much peace in my soul! The fears that I have, are being dealt with and eliminated one by one! It was so easy to obtain this lifestyle. God loves us so much, and with repentance it is available to anyone who believe that He is, who He says He is! If you don’t know Jesus, I would love to pray with you, introduce Him to you! You can email me privately, pollardtl@cox.net.

I have so much to share about Him.

Sometimes You Just Wonder….

With the swirl in the news surrounding Whitney Houston’s death, you can’t help think I wonder if all the people that are coming out of the wood works now after she is gone, were there to support her when she was at the height of her addiction. I know first hand that addiction is a dangerous, isolating, lonely place to be in. It is past the “social” status of when you used to get high with your friends, as a “social” event if I may. No, when your addicted to something, it is hardly a time to be social, your supply is limited enough for you, much less sharing with someone else. The old saying, “One pill is too many, but a thousand is never enough.” Your at peace now, Whitney, see you on the other side.

Such a Peaceful Place!

I am in such a good place right now, and I know it is because of my walk with Jesus! Before, I was always frustrated, sad for no apparent reason, and since I have committed my life to the Lord, it is amazing! I am happy, and with so much peace in my soul! The fears that I have, are being dealt with and eliminated one by one! It was so easy to obtain this lifestyle. God loves us so much, and with repentance it is available to anyone who believe that He is, who He says He is! If you don’t know Jesus, I would love to pray with you, introduce Him to you! You can email me privately, pollardtl@cox.net.

I have so much to share about Him.

In His Love,
Traci

I Know There’s A God If I’m Still Here

You know I was thinking this morning about God, and the concept of life. I know that the title to this article is pretty out there, but then again, when I think of how God has carried me through this life, life is pretty out there too. I know for me, I do not stop and thank God enough for his Grace and Mercy, on a minute to minute basis! He has carried me, when I couldn’t walk, became my eyes when I couldn’t see, and my ears when I couldn’t hear, metaphorically speaking.

All the times that should have killed me, Thank you!
All the times, you kept my children safe, Thank You!
All the times you carried me through addiction, Thank You!
All the times you brought my husband home to us at night, Thank You!
All the times you kept us safe in cars and traveling, Thank You!
All the times you cured our sicknesses, Thank You!
All the times you kept me from losing my mind, Thank You!
All the times you wiped my tears, Thank You.
All the times you kept us with a roof over our heads, heat, and something to eat. Thank You!
All the times we were able to pay a bill, Thank You!
All the times you loved me, when I didn’t love myself. Thank You.

I know that every breath we take, is because of your Mercy and Grace! Every time I see my family at the end of the day, its because of You.

Thank You God For keeping us, and loving us, and giving us the ultimate sacrifice, no one could ever do, your own Son. Thank You!

The Howl of the Wind

Matthew 14:27-31, I love these verses, it is a perfect description on how I feel sometimes when the storms of life are battering me. In Matthew, Peter expresses to Jesus that he is afraid of the strength of the wind, which caused Peter to take his eyes off Jesus, and he began to sink. “Lord,  save me”, Peter cried. The Lord replied,”You of little faith, why did you doubt?” As Jesus climbed into the boat the wind ceased.

In Beth Moore’s study of Breaking Free, she writes, “Christ does not always immediately calm the storm, but He is always willing to calm His child on the basis of His presence.”

Oh how many times, because of distractions, have I taken my eyes off Jesus? I let the distractions and circumstances of the world, cause me to take my eyes off Jesus, resulting in me tumbling down into the deep water’s of life. It was because of another force, (the wind) that caused me to stumble and  get off track of the path of the righteous life. After the fact, when I hit the water, I realize what was the cause of the fall, and it is up to me to re-focus my attention back on the Lord and get up again.

I remember the wind as a child frightened me, and in the night if I was staying with my grandmother, I would curl up as far underneath her as I could possibly get, feeling safe with her. I remember talking with her about the wind one night in the dark, I couldn’t see her, but the calmness of her voice when she told me that, “the wind is what God uses to talk to us”. She said if you lay real still and quiet, you will be able to hear his voice in the wind,  telling  us that it’s okay, not to be afraid, for he is near us.  I laid there for a few minutes, listening for his voice. I told her that I didn’t hear any voices, and she said just “be still child, you will hear it.”

I don’t recall hearing God’s voice through the wind that night,  but I did feel a peace, enough to fall back asleep. To this day, everytime I hear the wind, I feel the stillness and the tranquility of His peace, that He gives to us, that makes me no longer afraid of the wind. It not only makes me not afraid, not just of the wind, but it gives me the boldness to face each day, with an ear for hearing from Him, and a heart open to recieve His love and nurturing.

I thank God for the people, He has put into my life, and the lessons I have learned from Him, and through other people. It is amazing, that He is always there, and I can always feel His love, no matter what the circumstances are.  

Pride

God is really working on me with this. I never realized that we as humans are such a “see what I did for you,” type of culture, but we are, and I am just as guilty.

God told me to do something yesterday, and I did it. I also did it secretly to ensure that God was given all the Glory, as He should be. Later on in the day, a friend called me and told me about her day. She was so excited because she had been blessed that day, and told me on the phone that it was probably someone at her church that did it. Immediately my flesh wanted to say, “No it wasn’t, it was me.” but I didn’t for had I , she would have been more focused on what I had done, rather than the true gift, and the true source of the gift in which she received. She told me that because of this, she was able to witness to the lady that was riding in the car with her. Wow, two people for the Glory of God! That’s amazing! All in all, she told me of what the blessing had meant to her and her family, which was good. The most amazing part was that I got to see all the things that God could do with a little amount. I was able to see for myself all of God’s Glory! I also had a well needed exercise, of taking the focus off my flesh, and “not about me” scenario.

It was an amazing experience, being obedient to God and seeing all of His Wonder’s! If I could do it all again, I would do it better, so that nothing would interfere with sharing of His Glory! Not a single doubt, insecurity, or feeling that the flesh should be acknowledged. God is so good to me everyday, but yesterday was more amazing than ever!

Thank you God for the privilege and honor of serving you, I only hope that He will use me again real soon.

I Am Really Trying to Get This….

I know that I have previously written on Faith before, but it’s a concept I really want to get. I want to know that I know, that I have faith. Not occasionally but substantially, all of the time. Last week I was talking to a girlfriend. I shared with her my fear of losing my children, after watching my mom lose her son, my brother. I hope that you never have to experience this, but if you already have, then you know exactly what kind of heartbreaking pain that I am referring too.

Anyways, my friend told me that some of my anxieties is due to unbelief. Unbelief? What did she mean, of course I believe! I don’t think she was referring to whether or not I thought God existed, no, it’s deeper than that. Do I really believe that God is able, capable, and willing to handle things that are precious to me? You would say, of course, He is the one who gave them to me, but to really, really believe that God loves me, and has my best interest at heart.

But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that HE is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.  Hebrews 11:6

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9

I think that the verse above, Joshua 1:9 really signifies what I should do, and even if I am not completely convinced, believing through my doubt is the way to overcome it.

Until next time,
Peace.